the problem may be w/ some CBers that whenever the IP is mentioned they think automatically in reference to what Chuck did. But Blair can also be talking in reference to what she did because she was also part of why it succeeded at all. because if she wasn’t wiling to save him then there would have been no IP.
But i feel that in some CBers minds maybe they associate the guilt entirely to Chuck so whenever Blair mentions the IP, to them, she has to be talking about Chuck and holding him accountable. She was part of it too. How about she may be holding herself accountable? give the girl a little credit. I feel like she should be able to talk about the IP without being shushed. It was something that did happen to her. And yes, she’s entitled to still be dealing with feelings about it. It doesn’t mean that she hasn’t forgiven Chuck. But maybe this whole time she hasn’t forgiven herself for how she betrayed herself, her dignity, her self-esteem. you have to understand that what happened was very complex. I think this whole time Blair has been dealing with those feelings. And i understand that it may be easier to forgive Chuck for what happened then to forgive herself. If she’s verbalizing them now, it’s a good thing. She’s dealing with them. That’s a sign of maturity, a sign of positivity. She’s resolving things with herself. why wouldn’t people be happy for her to do that?
If Chuck and Blair ever end up together. It’s only to their benefit that she’s dealing with these things now. She wasn’t being accusatory of either Chuck or Louis. She just acknowledged that she lost herself in the process of being with those men
did she Blame them? i don’t feel she did. She’s aware she’s the one who compromised herself in those situations. that’s exactly what she was acknowledging. That it was her who lost herself.
I remember when she told Chuck “i don’t like who i’ve become with you”.
i think it was very precise that she didn’t say “I don’t like who i’ve become because of you”
because in the former statement she’s holding herself accountable for who she’s become. who she’s allowed herself to become.
Louis has truly loved Blair. Never asked Blair to compromise herself. If she didn’t love Louis, she could have walked away. But she didn’t. She compromised herself.
At first Chuck never pushed Blair to save him. he told her precisely in 3x12 that he doesn’t need her taking care of him. But she pushed him. she wanted to be purposeful to him. she wanted to save him. she told him and i’m going to cap this
' I FORCED MYSELF FOR YOU' (3x18)
When they were dancing with the balloon in between them. those are her words. Chuck may have known how to play her but Blair is ultimately responsible for allowing herself to be played. She crossed moral lines on her own. Chuck betrayed her. But she betrayed herself too.
(i just published this on twitter but i was asked to re-post it on tumblr. so there you go)