No One Understands What We Have, you know what i was thinking. I’m cerebral and i...

you know what i was thinking. I’m cerebral and i have film-like rolls of thoughts in the can of my head. Just right now attending to my pasta, i was thinking randomly upon a quote. When Chuck had told Blair with urgent conviction “The next time you forget you’re Blair Waldorf, remember i’m Chuck Bass and I love you”. why has this suddenly snapped me to attention? I don’t think i ever understood it as amply as i do now. It is the most beautiful thing about their relationship, the subliminal tendency of it all. Once in a while, a quote comes speeding at my consciousness with vibrant meaningfulness and i am brought to enlightenment.

Chuck tells Blair something so sheer and fluffy because he wanted to inspire confidence in her when she had very little in herself. He didn’t say those words to resound as a timeless bid in their relationship, but yet it has come to this. Chuck, in those words, is giving Blair a moon in the sky and a path of stars to lead her home from the darkness of the unknown back to the familiarity of her home (herself, which she seems to lose her way of quite regularly now). Blair is at the place now where’s forgotten she’s Blair Waldorf, and not only that maybe she’s forgotten who Blair Waldorf is, to begin with. It’s one thing to part from your identity but yet still remember who you used to be. It’s another thing to completely forget who you even were. But Chuck had told her years ago in so many words “The next time you forget you’re Blair Waldorf, remember i’m Chuck Bass and i love you”. Let’s skip the fact that Chuck is clearly encouraging her to be strong and self-reliable while yet a number of people give him credit for doing the opposite. But my point is other than this. The fact that he knows she has the weakness to forget who she is and to runaway and lose who she is, at times, but even so he doesn’t just push her to have to face her weakness of abandonment of self because he doesn’t have the cure for it. It’s always going to be up to her to defeat it, all he can do is give her encouragement which he does. But in his position of helplessness against her automatic demons, he does the most he can with it — He supplies himself as a stable constant of familiarity so she could always recognize herself in the reflection of his love for her. his love is like an amulet that serenades intimately her soul. He makes this statement so she can be secure in the knowledge that someone is always going to keep her from running too far.

This is really what it translates to in empirical form. Chuck is saying to Blair — Yes i would like you to always be yourself, but even when you can’t be you, i’ll still be me and i’ll be here always to remind you of who you are. And you know what? I love who you are. But i love more than who you are, I love who you choose to be and who you happen to be, at times, whether it be your true self or the farthest thing from it when your life is spinning out of control and you can’t handle being Blair Waldorf. I get it. I love all the things you are when you are Blair Waldorf, but also i love all the things other than her that you happen to be in transit, as absolutely as i know how to love. And next time you forget you’re Blair Waldorf and you happen to be something else, weaker, lower, poorer, i’ll still love you and my love for you will ricochet your path back to yourself where you are the epitome of perfection in my eyes.

I don’t think anyone can really conceptualize the psychotic level of love Chuck has for Blair. for lack of better words; ineffable love.

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